unemployment has its wonders...it makes you think of the best things in life yet to come! and now, i'm a working girl. a single, working girl. and i feel empty.
i remember how it was in high school. years of enthusiasm and fantasies. i know what i want, i know how to get what i want, and i know i can get what i want! now, i still know what i want, i still know how to get it, but i no longer know if i can still get it.
i never thought, not even in my wildest dreams, that i'd land this job. i'd be a certified rainmaker, i said. i joined all the debating clubs i know and majored the best course i know that will route me to the 'proper' destination..i was routed to that 'proper' destination but i have to change directions. reason: i have to grow up..
indeed, growth expands horizons. the horizon that you see is the same horizon that will block you from looking further; the same horizon that says 'stop' when there could have been a bit more, if only you didn't stop.
have i grown? they said independence is leaving the comfort zone but it welcomes maturity. i'd say, independence is leaving the comfort zone not because you want to mature but because time will always lead you there. you have to grow. harsh as it may seem, reality will always be bigger than us.
faced by the so many obstacles in life that possitivists have always tried to erase from our minds and yet by the act of doing so, they show them to us, horizons should never blindfold us but instead should tell us that there is something else, more than that which we are looking at.
as life gets bigger, i feel smaller. soon, i'll know more; yielding two different outcomes, i'll enjoy life's wonder or life will enjoy my wonder.
i don't hate my job. this is my first job, and i should be thankful that for a newbie like me, i'm getting double the mininum salary. i'm happy, yes. but this will never be my first and last job. my heart is not here, it's wandering somewhere else. and i know, i'll find it soon. and when that time comes, i'll stay where it is.