.....

actually, d man sa pagmahay..pero i think i lived my life too fast..
murag naa'y naglakag sa ako..
well, i'm really like this. i don't have that much patience...i get bored easily. d ko gusto maghulat..even with small stuff, i want to be done in a snap.
daghan ko giagpas. daghan ko gimadali.
mao pud cguro, if pwede, daghan ko gusto usbon.
pero of course, bisan mahurot cguro nako tanan nobena sa earth, nothing's gonna bring back the past.
gakaibog ko sa mga tao nga wala nag-agpas. people who are patient and determined. people who do not mind waiting...
unta gihinay-hinay nako.
but well..nahuman nah
no use na para maghilak
pero ginakumot akong dughan
i know the only way para mabag-o is kung mismo ako mubag-o sa ako self
pero ako na cguro ang babae nga dili gyud kaya ang lisud.
bisan gamay lang nga sakripisyo magbaguud na daun ko
life has blessed me with a lot of opportunities pero gipasagdan nako tanan.
wala na ko right magmahay karon
and definitely, life had been good to me
kanga2x lang jud ko
wa na ko kabalo aha ko dapit karon
i'll just go with the flow
tanan sa ako karon hanging..

if you ever change your mind

sure i understand
of course i'll be fine
you had a change of plans
oh well, i'll just change mine

but if it turns out bad
and if your nights get long
and if she makes you sad
no need to be strong

and if you ever change your mind
and find you miss those feelings that you left behind
we could give it one more try
some magic place in time
if you ever change your mind

i guess i better go
you know i hate goodbyes
let's not drag this out babe
i'll see 'round some time

and if you ever change your mind
and find you miss those feelings that you left behind
we could give it one more try
some magic place in time
if you ever change your mind

Go don't look back
let the heartaches pass

and if you ever change your mind
and find you miss those feelings that you left behind
we could give it one more try
some magic place some time
if you ever change your mind

i saw it coming...

..and it has come.

although painful, truth is there for acceptance. like any other lesson to be learned.

but this too, shall pass.

"i don't hate my job. this is my first job, and i should be thankful that for a newbie like me, i'm getting double the mininum salary. i'm happy, yes. but this will never be my first and last job. my heart is not here, it's wandering somewhere else. and i know, i'll find it soon. and when that time comes, i'll stay where it is."

---i've been lost for 4 years now...will i ever find where my heart is? or will my heart be forever restless?----

blank wall

why do i have this feeling that i always am facing a blank wall?

that no matter what i do, there's nothing at the end of the tunnel?

that i am always walking and at times running a never ending trail?

does life really has any direction for me? or do i have any direction at all?

why am i always at the losing end?

why all these questions?

where are all the answers?

why, after the glorious college life, i still have nothing?

what has happened to me after 2004 ended?

when love is gone

an ending for every beginning and a beginning for every ending...

i hate how it works..and at times think about the possibility of ending..

but even death is not a definite end.

i really just want to stop for a while...make that a long long while.

be alone and think of nothing.

...but society always trails behind me...

someone.something.always there.