"i don't hate my job. this is my first job, and i should be thankful that for a newbie like me, i'm getting double the mininum salary. i'm happy, yes. but this will never be my first and last job. my heart is not here, it's wandering somewhere else. and i know, i'll find it soon. and when that time comes, i'll stay where it is."

---i've been lost for 4 years now...will i ever find where my heart is? or will my heart be forever restless?----

blank wall

why do i have this feeling that i always am facing a blank wall?

that no matter what i do, there's nothing at the end of the tunnel?

that i am always walking and at times running a never ending trail?

does life really has any direction for me? or do i have any direction at all?

why am i always at the losing end?

why all these questions?

where are all the answers?

why, after the glorious college life, i still have nothing?

what has happened to me after 2004 ended?

when love is gone

an ending for every beginning and a beginning for every ending...

i hate how it works..and at times think about the possibility of ending..

but even death is not a definite end.

i really just want to stop for a while...make that a long long while.

be alone and think of nothing.

...but society always trails behind me...

someone.something.always there.