sábado, marzo 25, 2006

3-day leave

m in manila 4 a short vacay...and i enjoyed it! watched a concert wit my cuz..had some fun! saw piolo pascual..jean garcia..christy fermin..kuya germs..ogie alcasid..sarh geronimo..juris of MYMP..ruffa mae quinto..and (drums....) MARK BAUTISTA!!! heehhe..i watched his concert! d best performance ever..

miércoles, marzo 15, 2006

good samaritan

i was on my way home to cdo..i thought it's just gonna be an ordinary day...i was 10 km short of reaching malaybalay city when suddenly my car's temp went higher than normal..i thought it was just some ordinary case of water shortage so i made a stop 2 put some water in the radiator..it worked!..for a while...again, the temp went up..fortunately there was a shop nearby...i thought the problem has been fixed when i left the shop..but no! back to zero again..with a lot of things left undone, i was becoming desperate..'this stupid car!!!' i asked around for some nearby car repair shop, and i was lead to sumpong, 5 min drive from the city proper..they found out that the radiator's fan is not working..an hour later, it was fixed. sadly, clock strikes 6pm! nyt driving in bukidnon is a no no 4 me! but i really wanna go home, so i gulped all my doubts and fears and headed home. 10 km from sumpong, 'this stupid car's temp went up again! i was furious..but can i blame this stupid car? i was to meet one of my contacts..this car cannot not work! fortunately, i reached her house and asked for a bucket of water..i poured em all in my car's radiator..7pm says the clock..she won't allow me to go home alone so she offered their house..i was so touched..she reminded me of my mom..but being the hard-headed me, i refused and told her i'll be fine...bit suicidal, ain't i? she won't allow me..she asked her neice to call a guy named 'Ben..'he drives one of our trucks..u'l be fine with him..' okay.

so ben and i, braved d nyt..we stop every 10 km 2 re-fuel d car with water..d nyt was freezing cold and the moon was at its fullest..can't help but think of werewolves and stuff..what's so inspiring is everytime we make a stop, there's always a good samaritan offering help..(naka-kolekta man cguro mi ug napulo ka botelya sa tubig..gaipabaun sa amo sa among malabyan..)

4 all my 11 months of covering this area, i never even glanced at all the sorrounding huts..didn't even appreciate their existence..but that night taught me one of life's important lessons: never underestimate the ordinary..there is extravagance in the simple things..sometimes we don't take notice of the commom because they're so 'just there!' but that night taught me d opposite..

we arrived in CDO 12mn..my mom was still wide awake..as usual, she can't sleep knowing that i am in a difficult situation..that night i felt so loved..so well taken cared of..all my frustrations were set aside..i was able to breathe finally..

my concern business contact..d guy who accompanied me to cdo..all those folks who offered a little help or more...my family..it all dawned on me: god has a special way of making me feel better..

to all the good samaritans out there: my apology and regret for taking u 4granted. and thankfulness 4 finally knowing u.

martes, marzo 07, 2006

young and tired

it never ceased to hunt me.

when things are getting tougher and harder each day.

people disrespect you.

existence becomes a big deal..

and that which threatens it frightens you no more.

soon this labored breathing would stop.

agony suppressed by fake laughters and cheers.

these will all stop.

and there will be peace.

and i'll fear no more.

lunes, febrero 20, 2006

it's down..

gee, and how affected i am...waahhh!!! i can't access my favorite site!! wa hapnd ???

miércoles, febrero 15, 2006

....

and i don't know what 2 say..

martes, febrero 14, 2006

haayyy

y r all restos, even fastfood chains, suddenly changed their motfs 2 red??? and r they cutting d costs of their electric bills, having only candles as source of light??
and what's w the good-4-two-persons-table-arrangement??

i don't get it...

uuhhh, is it really valentines? duh..

jueves, febrero 09, 2006

the preamble of my spirituality

remember those times when you thought you have everything?
and then suddenly that everything was threatened until there was nothing?
remember how you prayed and begged and asked for mercy?
...because life didn't seem right then..
...it was all a blur...and you wanted more...
you thought life would be easy..
no sweat, kindda easy..and you will be fine
you have set a road for yourself..
a road you thought will be followed closely..
a road appropriate for you..
for you are too damn smart to be taking a different road..
and then when you were almost finish, the nursery ryhme 'london bridge is falling down' suddenly seemed such a big deal to you
because it is happening right before your very eye
your bridge falling down, falling down, falling down..
you needed help but didn't asked anyone
because you thought you could storm it all out alone
because you thought your god will pave the way
because you thought you're too smart to be asking for help
you're too good for that, ayt?
so it was only you and your god..
which, unfortunately, wasn't a bit religious in any sense
because that god of yours is just for magic, miracle, blessing.
your personal assistant who will forever be there to save your ass.
so that experience never thought you anything..
didn't even nourish you spiritually.
and you thought you prayed..
you did not. it was a demand.
like a boss to his subordinate.
and so patient was your god for keeping up with you.
and so impatient were you for looking for deliverance somewhere else..
finally, you thought, you don't need your god.
that it's a journey you can thread on your own.
such arrogance..
you built another bridge..
and while doing so reality hit your hard.and harder still.
tears fell.you saw blood.
it was the most painful experience then for you..
but it was the most beautiful, i should say..
while you were alone, you felt your god within you.
while you were building another bridge, you saw your god's hands carefully moving to set the foundation..you saw your god's eyes wisely overseeing everything..
you knelt and prayed. this time it was really a prayer.
as you surrendered everything to your god, your god made you your own boss..
your god paved the way.
your god 'granted' each of your heart's longing.
you didn't ask. you told your god.
you didn't demand. you laid your plan to your god.
and finally, there it is: a stronger bridge.
now, life isn't fair still.
but you have peace.
life isn't a bit easier.
but you have every reason to smile.
look at your family. look at your friends. look at your mother.
such pride in their eyes while they're looking back at you.
why the fear?
go ahead, it's time to cross that stronger bridge.

miércoles, enero 25, 2006

meet my fiance`..




come late feb or early march, we're getting married!!!! heheh, pathetic!

by the way, his name is MB1. hehehe don't ask na why..

i'm so excited..rockNroll!!!! who wants 2 join the joyride?????

GOAL

lose 15 lbs!

gosh, i feel so bloated! my pants still fit but i feeell so ffaaaatttt!!!

...and i hate it when people take notice..adding insult to injury..

but really, i wanna feel sexy..i don't know what's happening..my eating habits r the same so how come i'm piling up excess body weight?

miércoles, enero 11, 2006

a star fit for a star




i don't have any right...
up there..i look up to..
no..no..cannot be..
a commoner, i am..

sábado, enero 07, 2006

my philosophical years

saw this from my files in college.. i just dunno if i could still think and write this way again..i feel like a baby out of her mother's womb (hehe, how does it feel bah?)

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A REINVESTIGATION ON THE PRESENCE OF HERMENEUTICS IN THE FIELDS OF BIBLICAL INTERPRETATION, LITERARY CRITICISM, FOREIGN RELATIONS, LAW & LEGAL PRACTICES, AND MEDICINE. (working title pa lang yan! how arrogant!!hehe)

globalization has been the constant issue of the present generation incorporated with the advanced methods of thinking and doing things out. the field of philosophy is somehow taken as a sort of criticism to this advancement, thus, a negative reaction to the progress of the modern world. People from the realms of medicine and law, or of any field incorporated with scientific knowledge, seem to disregard the presence of philosophical reflection or interpretation--hermeneutics in modern use--in their daily maneuvers to conquer the many hidden facts in the universe using the precision of science.
This study therefore aims to qualify these perceptions. hermeneutics, defined above as a philosophical reflection or interpretation, is everywhere. it is not just in philosophy alone that hermeneutics exists: everything is hermeneutics.a single interpretation of an atom is hermeneutics; a single question to that interpretation is hermeneutics too. Man, no matter how far he has achieved, cannot deny the fact that in everything he sees, feels, hears, smells, or simply senses, comes a consensus of what it is, how it is, and why it is. this is hermeneutics.
there is a strict compliance of a single meaning in the field of law, the precision and objectivity of science is a blank wall that prevents any other interpretation to exude; foreign relationships is taken simply as reaching-out to other nations for the benefit of all; any different interpretation of the bible can cause an outbreak of a paranoia of destroying a stable faith; literature carries a thousand voices and a thousand meanings, but even before one starts saying his piece, a preceding understanding already prohibits him from doing so.how then does hermeneutics sip in?
news of scientists criticizing science, or religious men criticizing their own religions or religiousity, is not new anymore.they've been heard, and they have changed other's perceptions. the single task of hermeneutics is to know what is questionable. a widely accepted tradition, for example, can still be questioned as long as the question is valid. this is the predicament of hermeneutics, especially that many take questioning as destroying.even in literature, fictional books are sometimes taken as real. when the muslim author Rushdie's book, Demonic Verses, was published a huge Muslim population reacted so violently procuring a manhunt to capture the author dead or alive. what happened? in rushdie's book, Mohammed, the islam prophet, was told to have taken the words of satan and not of allah when he created the islamic religion. this infuriated the muslim population that rushdie had to seek protection from the bristish government to which he is a citizen of.
thus is the purpose of this study: show the presence of hermeneutics even in the strictest area of concentration. and even in this technologically advanced world..
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haha! i tot im having a hungover after reading this..this must be the feeling of a drowning fish..hehe..i must really be deteriorating..i know this isn't much..someone else out there could write a better observation and have a better understanding..my point lang is it's me. the changes. the conflict. it's just me. silly, isn't it?

miércoles, enero 04, 2006

pilya, my friend! she's getting married na pala and she didn't even tell me about it..well, im happy for her..here's one for u on ur wedding day (civil muna,,)..a song that both of u could sing to each other hehe..

your love
alamid

you're the one that never lets me sleep
to my mind, down to my soul you touch my lips
you're the one that i can't wait to see
with you here by my side i'm in ecstasy


i am all alone without you
my days are dark without a glimpse of you
but now that you came into my life
i feel complete
the flowers bloom, my morning shines
and i can see


your love is like the sun
that lights up my whole world
i feel the warmth inside
your love is like the river
that flows down through my veins
i feel the chill inside


every time i hear our music play
reminds me of the things that we've been through
in my mind i can't believe it's true
but in my heart the reality is you

martes, enero 03, 2006

10 things...

10. Spend wisely (be 'kuripot' if possible..)
09. never ever ever again be smitten by brands!!! (doesn't matter unless it's
nestle product..)
08. think think think (flush that spur of the moment, expulsive decision, out!)
07. cut the chase! (i am not darna!!!)
06. smile..smile...smile..if u've got nothing to say, smile..
05. believe in the true meaning of karmic cycle
04. always always look back from where u came from
03. watch what u eat..one word:diet
02. know that i am beautiful..:)
01. love.love.love.

lunes, enero 02, 2006

DON'T SPEAK!


illusion: i told ya! ex lagi nako na!! tambok lang ko diha ug gwapo lang siya tan-awon hehe..
the story: jaegger and i were dining at cafe laguna when the 'crowd suddenly went wild..' hehe..actually, we were so engrossed with our 'catching up' when those guys occupying the table near us started taking pictures of 'something' with their phones and one was even holding a digicam..and then we realized, it wasn't a something..a SOMEONE actually..mark bautista, a taal cagay-anon, is in the house!! remember, i even shamelessly posted his pic here and tried to convince everyone that he's my ex (heck, can't even convince myself..)..so, in a spur of the moment decision, i handed jaegger my phone and asked him to take my pic with mark..imagine, jaegger's face..heheh..i knew he tried to say 'baduy mo, js!' and i was the ever-stubborn girl whom, i believe, has been contaminated with the 'jologs virus' endemic in my 'baranggay health workers' filled job..mark was really nice..he was in a hurry (guess, catching up a flight back to manila or was on his way to their house to get some sleep..) but gave in to my silly whim and flashed that sweet smile of his which, fortunately, my cam-phone captured!
perfect! hapi new year everyone!

lunes, diciembre 12, 2005

i want you

i want you
to be the best that you can be..
i want you
to hear the biggest applause ever!
and i want that applause to be for you
i want you
to feel how it is to receive a standing ovation
to win the crowd's heart
to cherish their cheers and praises
i want you
to be the center of attention
to achieve you greatest dreams
to vow and never surrender
i want you
to be the victor of every game
to have everyone else looking at you
basking in your glory
i want you
to sing while everybody listens
dance while everyone's watching
look into their eyes and say "i'm here!"
i want you
to be the envy of everybody
to rise above your crowd
to live..to love..to be..
and i will just be here..
watching your every move...
witnessing the glory that is you.

jueves, diciembre 01, 2005

sayang..


sus..y man nakigbulag pa ko nimo nga musikat man diay ka??? kung alam ko lang..shucks..dah! heheh..(la lang jud mahimo bah..)

love is a contradiction

proving it the APO way...


HUWAG NA HUWAG MASANAY SA PAGMAMAHAL

HUWAG NA HUWAG MASANAY SA PAGMAMAHAL
KAPAG NASANAY KA, NAKU KAWAWA KA
HINDI LANG BASTA-BASTA ANG PAGMAMAHAL
KAPAG UMIBIG KA TILA MAY ABALA
IBANG-IBA ANG BUHAY MO KAPAG NAG-IISA
WALANG INAASIKASONG PROBLEMA NG IBA
KAYA KUNG NAG-AALINLANGAN MAGMAHAL
ANG PAYO KO SA ‘YO AY HUWAG NA LANG

(Kuh)
BAKIT PARANG UMAANGAL KA NGAYON
NGAYON AT NASA IYO NA ANG PAG-IBIG KO
HINDI BA KELAN LAMANG NUNG SINABI MO
WALANG IBANG GUSTO PARA SA BUHAY MO
GANYAN BA TALAGA ANG KWENTO NG PAGMAMAHAL
PARANG ‘SANG GAYUMA NA HINDI NAGTATAGAL
KAYA KUNG NAG-AALINLANGANG MAGMAHAL
ANG PAYO KO SA ‘YO AY HUWAG NA LANG

(APO & Kuh)
REFRAIN:
BAKIT AYAW NG NAG-IISA
KAILANGAN PANG MERONG KASAMA
KASAMA NA NAGDADALA LAMANG NG SAKIT NG ULO
(Kuh)
HUWAG MONG PASUKAN KUNG HINDI MO KAYA
ANG BUHAY NG MAYROONG KASAMA
MABUTI PANG MAIWAN NA NAG-IISA
WALA PANG ABALA

LALALALALALA

(APO & Kuh)
IBANG-IBA ANG BUHAY KAPAG NAG-IISA
WALANG INAASIKASONG PROBLEMA NG IBA
KAYA KUNG NAG-AALINLANGANG MAGMAHAL
ANG PAYO KO SA ‘YO AY HUWAG NA LANG
ANG PAYO KO SA ‘YO AY HUWAG NA LANG


paano
apo hiking society

paano mo malalaman
itong pag-ibig ko sa ‘yo
paano mo mararamdaman
ang tibok ng puso ko
kung lagi kang kinakabahan
na ika’y masasaktan
pangako ko, ang puso mo’y
hindi pakakawalan

paano mo maiintindihan
na ako’y nananabik
o, kelan ko kaya madarama
ang tamis ng iyong halik
kung lagi mong inaatrasan
ang sugod ng nagmamahal
sana nama’y pagbigyan mo’ng
hiling ng puso ko

subukan mong magmahal
o giliw ko
kakaibang ligayang matatamo
ang magmahal ng iba’y
di ko gagawin
pagka’t ikaw lang
tanging sasambahin
huwag ka nang mangagamba
pag-ibig ko’y ikaw
wala nang iba

Tuyo Na'ng Damdamin

MINSAN KAHIT NA PILITIN MONG UMINIT ANG DAMDAMIN
DI SIYA SUSUNOD, AT DI MAGLALAMBING
MINSAN DI MO NA MAPIGIL MAPANSIN
NA TALAGANG WALA NANG NAIIWAN NA PAGMAMAHAL

REFRAIN:
AT KAHIT NA ANONG GAWIN
DI MO NA MAPILIT AT MADAYA
AMININ SA SARILI MO
NA WALA KA NG MABUBUGA

PARANG ‘SANG KANDILA NA NAGDADALA
NG ILAW AT LIWANAG
NAUUBOS RIN SA MAGDAMAG

(INSTRUMENTAL)

DI NA MADAIG O MABALIK ANG DATING MATAMIS NA KAHAPON
PILITIN MA’Y TUYO NA’NG DAMDAMIN

Panalangin

I.
PANALANGIN KO SA HABANG BUHAY
MAKAPILING KA, MAKASAMA KA
YAN ANG PANALANGIN KO-OH
AT HINDI PAPAYAG, ANG PUSONG ITO
MAWALA KA, SA ‘KING PILING
MAHAL KO IYONG DINGGIN

II.
WALA NG IBA PANG MAS MAHALAGA
SA TAMIS NA DULOT NG PAG-IBIG
NATING DAL’WA…
AT SANA NAMAN MAKIKINIG KA
KAPAG AKING SASABIHIN
MINAMAHAL KITA…AAAH

(REPEAT I & II 2X)

III.
PANALANGIN KO SA HABANG BUHAY
MAKAPILING KA, MAKASAMA KA
YAN ANG PANALANGIN KO-OH
AT HINDI PAPAYAG, ANG PUSONG ITO
MAWALA KA, SA ‘KING PILING
MAHAL KO, IYONG DINGGIN

..ewan ko, hindi ko alam..pwede bang wag na lang nating pag-usapan? ay, eraser heads na diay ni..hehe...

martes, noviembre 22, 2005

i hate it

but i'm starting to miss how life was when i was stil a call center agent..MABUANG NA KO SA PRESSURE SA AKONG TRABAHO!!!

we don't really see what we seem to see


click on the picture

If your eyes follow the movement of the rotating pink dot,
you will only see one color, pink.

However, if you stare at the black "+" in the center,
the moving dot turns to green.

Now, concentrate on the black "+" in the center of the picture.
After a short period, all the pink dots will slowly disappear,
and you will only see a green dot rotating.

It's amazing how our brain works. There really is no green dot,
and the pink ones really don't disappear. This should be proof
enough, we don't always see what we think we see.

lunes, noviembre 21, 2005

sorry...caught the virus too..


HE IS SOO CUTE! look, i'm sorry, okay..i'm no fan but who can resist that boyish charm trapped in him...? and man, does he deliver!! perfect, sam, perfect!

(oh, cmon! don't i have the right to revive my teenage years..?)