i still remember you

amidst all the hurt and all the pain, i still remember you...and still get excited at the thought of hearing your voice again, feeling your touch again, seeing your face again.
maybe because you're the first man i really loved. a love that knew no boundary; a love so willing to give and sometimes does not mind receiving anything at all. i, then, was too willing to accept you--flaws and all.
where are you now? where is that love we used to share?
it's like nothing really happened, right?
like a pre-election government project that went down the drain after the votes were cast.
a lot of songs still remind me of you like how traffic jams remind commuters of how a road project was promised..
some places still do..
the memories are still haunting me..
and yes, even if i have someone else right now.
i hope you have incapacitated me to love that way again. because honestly, i don't want to love him like i have loved you.
i don't want to give everything...
sakto na ang nabuang ko kausa sa isa ka lalaki nga wala man lang ko gitagaan ug bili.
soon, i know, you'll just be a distant memory. and if i remember you again, i wouldn't feel the pain. or the happiness we once shared.
it will be just you. just a face...just a name.